While everyone and their pet AIBO is making End Of Year lists and looking back, needless to say - for loyal readers and close friends, at least - I'm busy looking ahead. 2006 is going to be an awesome year, or at least one I'm heavily looking forward to. 2005 was a stinker of a year for me on a personal level, but that's good, because it'll be so much easier to have a good year right after that.
Of course, my rebellious 'looking forward' is actually a cloaked 'looking back', but hey, chances are you're all still hung over and half asleep when I publish this, so it will be weeks before anyone bursts that bubble. Whoops, I just did, myself.
2006 will be a year in which I'll return to making webcomics. Sure, I made webcomics in 2005. The Grim DotCom. Some comics at the Tilburg Fair. And a guest comic or two here and there. But really, that was nothing. I wasn't soaring, growing creatively, reaching for the skies, expanding my horizons - I was mostly doing what I already know how to do. I was too busy to do anything else. And I hated being too busy to do anything else. I have been piling interesting ideas up on a shelf, the past year, because I knew I wouldn't have the time available that they would take if I had followed them through. If I had followed them through well. And there's no point in following through good ideas badly. So they've been collecting dust, and it's high time I start dusting some of them off.
2006 will be a year of no more organizing. Well, I may have to eat those words. But the intention is there: none of the endless 'little' crap that's involved in organizing, anymore. And no more ClickBurg. I've done it, I've paid my - well, some - dues in that field and I've found out how much time and energy they cost me. I can't afford it. Not if I have to do the things I want to be doing.
A lot of people keep telling me I have a great 'talent' for oranizing. That's nonsense - what they mean is, I got the job done on several things I was organisationally involved with. But all I did was wat anyone with some common sense would do: say 'it is NOT impossible', then chop everything up into small, performable actions, and going ahead and DOING them. Time for other people to discover it's just that easy. I feel I'm meant for other things. I'm not saying 'better' things, note. OTHER things. I'm not 'above' organizing. It's just something I can't be doing this year, because I have other things I have to be doing.
2006 will be a busy year, work-wise. It may also be the year I leave my current employer. I don't know yet, but it's been on my mind for years. It won't be anytime soon, but the moment may come this year that I decide enough is enough, my role in this story is finished, and I need to move on to a new one.
But until then, I plan to take my job pretty seriously. This department currently direly needs every bit of help the employees can offer, and I intend to do my part. We're not out of the storm yet, and there's still a few heavy winds to take.
2006 will be a year of me trying new things. I got a short taste of being on stage recently and it was interesting. The most interesting part was that it offered different outlets for some of my ideas. And I managed to combine it with outlets I'm more experienced in, which enhanced the set of ideas as a whole, hugely. I was intrigued. And I finished the (small) project with a major feelin of accomplishment. Sure, I had to wear a dress. But screw that, it was a successful artistic endeavour and I pulled it off more than properly. I liked that feeling. I want that feeling again. Of major projects involving lots of things I've never done before that all fall in line together. I'm not saying I'll necessarily go on stage for anything again in 2006, mind you - but I've found that I can. So who knows what kind of live performances might follow.
Most importantly of all... 2006 will be a year where I'll finally make an honest attempt at taking more time for myself. I'll try to have a lot more fun, a lot more rest, and tend to areas of my life and personality that have been heavily neglected this past year to allow focus on other things. And that, I think, will be what I'll like best about 2006 this time next year. If I fail at that, 2006 will have been a faillure altogether. Because it's high time that there's a year again that will be my year.
So. What are YOU going to get out of this year ?
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